Yeah, now that I think about it that does seem like an interesting idea.
Teehee!
It had been about three weeks since Aleksey had seen Jae. The last time the two had been together was when they had fled from the warehouse they had been imprisoned within for four nights. Aleksey had revealed every dark secret he had kept hidden from Jae the first night, from when his power had been discovered, his mother's death and how his father took advantage of the fact that no matter how many bullets were fired into his body, Aleksey still survived. He recalled the few instances where he remembered the person he killed. He told Jae how he had grown up being his father's "delivery boy", handling the most dangerous of packages when he was only seven years old with a gun tucked into the back of his jeans. The 'family business' included more family members than just Yuri, but most of them were particularly wary of Aleksey because of the fact that he posed such a risk to them. They treated him like he was as fragile as finely cut glass - as if one wrong move from them would cause him to crash and put a bullet into their heads.
It was a life that Aleksey had detested. His mother's death had been tainted with evil and blood - his father had smeared that blood onto his hands. Wanting freedom, Aleksey had fled - to family that had cut their ties with the Vasilyevs. Luka was his secound-cousin - perhaps, Aleksey wasn't sure - and he had grown up with Dimitri Utkin (Aleksey had an idea that he might have been an uncle-in-law or something of that sort). He turned up on their doorstep one day and didn't need to explain anything. Dimitri just took one look at him and seemed to completely understand. But Aleksey knew he couldn't stay with them. Dimitri had a family of his own to care for, and so Aleksey left after only staying with them for a few weeks.
traveling around, however, didn't suit him. Aleksey had street smarts and picked up English pretty quickly, but he didn't like being on the constant move. It was one day when he dared call Dimitri that the older male explained to him that Luka had moved to a school in France to teach students with 'gifts' similar to what Aleksey had. Dimitri was the last person he had ever told about his healing ability; even when he arrived at the school and enrolled.
Somewhere in all his travelling about, Aleksey had found a kindred soul. It was within that fellow wanderer's room that he had taken refuge.
"You hiding out in here is ruining my chances of having 'alone time' with Henrick," Felix complained, leadning back in his desk chair and looking over at the figure curled up under a blanket on his bed and hugging a pillow to his chest. "Dude, you're acting like the two of you have broken up."
Aleksey sighed heavily and nuzzled into the edge of the pillow, eyes slipping closed. "I don't think he would want to be with me after what happened..." he mumbled.
Spinning around in the chair, Felix leaned his elbows on the backrest and looked over at the other male. "What happened in that warehouse?"
"I..." Aleksey looked away. Felix still didn't know. If he really wanted to know he could use the powers the symbiont gave him and poke through Aleksey's memories to find out for himself. If he did, Aleksey wouldn't stop him this time - but he didn't feel up to talking about it yet. Not again. "Bad things happened. Jae would be safe if he did not go out with me."
"He's a werewolf. Don't treat him like he's some innocent little kid. If you two don't talk about what happened then things are bound to break between you two." He scratched at his hair in thought. "He's probably worried and maybe a little bit scared. What he wants - no - what he needs is for you to assure him that everything is all right. That what happened in that warehouse was unavoidable but its not going to come between you both. Your relationship is built on trust. He needs to trust you and you need to trust in him. You need to trust that he won't leave you because things went a little wrong." He pushed the chair over towards the best and reached out, placing his hand on Aleksey's shoulder. "He's never been in a relationship with a guy before. If you keep hiding in here he's going to think that you never really gave a damn about him."
Listening to Felix explain things in the way he did - as if he knew more about the world than the mere eighteen years he'd lived in it for - made Aleksey's worries bubble over. He'd been avoiding Jae because he couldn't face up to what he had done. Jae had watched him push the barrel of the gun against his Yuri's temple. Jae had watched Aleksey kill his own father. It had been the only way they could both escape. It was the only way that Aleksey could truly be free. He should have done it back when he had first decided to run away. If he had then Jae would have never been dragged into it. Jae wouldn't have had to watch Aleksey rip his own arm off.
Jae wouldn't have had to watch Aleksey die...
Letting out a chuckle, Felix pushed his shoulder. "Oh stop moping like a woman!" he announced. "Go and talk to him, before I have to drag your sorry ass to him myself."
Doing as he was told, Aleksey unfolded himself from the bed and headed for the door. He glanced back over his shoulder to see Felix waving to him cheerfully. "You just want to get laid," Aleksey said.
"You've been in my room for about three weeks. The only time I've had this room to myself was when I forced you to go and shower." He pinched his nose as if he could smell something bad. "Go shower before you talk to Jae. You don't want to insult his senstive werewolf nose with your reek, Now shoo."
After showering and finally returning to his own room, aleksey quickly changed, combed his hair with his fingers and set out to find Jae. He found him heading between lessons (being friends with Felix tended to have an adverse effect on people; they tended to skip classes). Walking up beside him, he offered Jae a small smile. "Can I talk to you?"
"Its been three weeks, Aleksey. It seemed pretty obvious that you didn't want to talk."
Aleksey sighed and lightly curled his fingers around Jae's arm, barely holding onto him. He was afraid Jae would see him as some kind of monster and hate him. "Please? Just come with me."
Giving in, Jae followed him, and Aleksey lead them both into a deserted classroom. He hadn't picked this one out intentionally, but when he closed the door behind Jae and leaned against the wood he noted that it was the same classroom that he had dragged Jae into the first time they had met. The same classroom he had convinced Jae to go out with him in.
"Why've you been avoiding me, Aleksey?"
Another heavy sigh and he looked down at the floor between his feet. "Because you saw what I did. Because now you know what I am." He lifted his head, pressing the back of his skull against the door, dark eyes looking over at where Jae was standing. "Because I am scared that you would not want to be with me anymore."
"Aleksey..."
"I love you, Jae, but I am scared that after what you saw me do that you will never love me the same."
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